I absolutely DETEST taking pethidine.
It makes me feel what Dave and I have come to describe as "jangly."
I can't bear anyone touching me or even talking to me.
Every small tap or slurp is magnified a thousand times, so I jump out of my skin at nothing and feel like I want to strangle anyone who dares even to breathe in my presence.
It makes my muscles twitch, so that, out of the blue a cup of tea I'm holding might shoot across the room. I don't even carry my baby down the stairs as I'm frightened I'll drop him.
It makes me sweat. I wake up in the night literally drenched, lying in a wet bed that I have to either change or give up on, choosing instead to plod downstairs to the sofa.
It makes me itch. I watch this twitchy, itchy wreck, constantly scratching at herself like an addict and slurring through mangled sentences. I simply stay in my bedroom now, so that I don't have to share that pathetic version of me with those that love me the most. Sometimes it means I spend days on end upstairs vomiting and hiding away.
It keeps me awake, so it's fairly common to see me padding about at 3am. Often I don't actually manage to get to sleep until dawn.
It mashes my brain and makes me forget what I'm writing or whatever I was in the middle of saying. I hate that, it embarrasses me.
I have to take it by injection, giving me sore legs, ugly bruises and the constant risk of abscesses.
When I've taken it, an hour or so later I almost always desperately plead at my husband "What about this did I think was better than being in pain?"
But tomorrow or the next day, the pain will rage and all over again it will seem inconceivable that I just tolerate it. It is not a tolerable pain.
Its awful, the drugs meant to help alleviate our pain or discomfort can cause other problems. When I was in the hospital on Wednesday evening the doctor said that voltorol would help, only problem is, voltorol causes my bowls to spasm which is even more painful. So I didn't get that.ReplyDelete
I to cant take pain killers as they just make me sick so I'm stuck with whatever pain i have mainly heart/lung and bowel pain only injectable morphine works but not always and leaves me breathless so it's not a panaceaReplyDelete
Like you sue i sweat heavily and that's without pain killers you always sweat anyhow when in pain that's just normal
Gosh - your reactions to pethidine are my reactions to morphine (bar the vomiting). I absolutely abominate the stuff and yes - 'you mean people do this an call it *pleasure*??' Oddly - the pethidine worked............. once the nurses followed the drs' instructions to give it to me!ReplyDelete
Haha, Dona, Pethidine is the "good" one. All the symptoms I describe above, I put up with daily at the moment. Morphine just tries to kill me, lol.ReplyDelete